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Monday, 20 October 2008

  • Kinda sad.

    It's sad to watch your friends turn to alcohol and drugs. It seemed like yesterday when they were explaining
    that they would never become like the people that they are today. The friends who seemed to find the fun at church
    changed into friends who rely on drugs and drinking to have fun. Don't get me wrong, I know couple non-christian friends who are clean from drugs and alcohol...But just to watch them to throw away their interest in religion just like
    that over parties involving drinking or drugs. I'm thankful to say I'm still clean from alcohol or any other toxins so far.
    It's just amazing how people can change and act so differently in their "own" lives.

Tuesday, 23 September 2008

  • Empty.

    Life seems so dull. It feels empty as if it's missing an important piece that I can't find. I don't know what, but everyday I wake up, I don't look forward to anything. This is not good. I look around as my friends already have an interest in a certain college and etc, but I admit that I have no special interest in any specific colleges. I see college as another extended version of highschool with a change of the environment where you live away from your home. As I repeat the things I do everyday, I ask myself, there's more to life than this. I got to turn to God for questions & answers...but easier to be said than to be done. I think I'm starting to lose it. ahhh. Perhaps it's identity crisis? or maybe it's the ap psych book that I'm reading....haha. Other than that. Sep 20th was very memorable.

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    I am holding onto a "once in a lifetime" chance. There's no other person in my life whom I felt stronger connection with.

    --however, she did not feel the same way. the end.

Tuesday, 12 August 2008

  • Someone to talk to?

    I wish I had a person in my family whom I can share my life stories with. I have tried with my mom, but it never works out. She just puts me in a lower level, so it's more like, "oh you don't know anything." That's how it usually ends. I would love to talk to her about my point of view, but it always end up her talking and me listening. My brother, no. I wouldn't share personal stuff with him either. My dad, I don't know, I haven't really tried I don't think, but I don't see it happening either. I really envy people who can talk to one of their family members about their lives. I think it's just because I am the youngest in my family. I would love to have a thoughtful conversation with one of my family members receiving respect and giving respect as well.

Wednesday, 06 August 2008

Wednesday, 16 July 2008

  • Sleepwalk?

    So for the very first time, I think I sleepwalked. I slept on my bed last night. I felt comfortable because of the cool breeze coming in from outside. Then I started to feel kinda hot. Then I realized in the morning when I opened my eyes, I was on the couch. I was like touching the couch to make sure it wasn't the bed. How weird. I usually sleep on the couch when I think the room is too hot. But i found it very surprising.